I have trouble trusting men.

I almost always sat at my old church alone.

Once, an old man and his wife sat next to me. You know sometimes how you feel defiled by just a man’s eyes on you? That’s how that old man made me feel. He creeped me out all the way through service. I felt sick, and like I wished I was ugly.

My first boyfriend’s dad made me feel the same way.

I have trouble trusting.