Ha! I DID it! I came to church mid-week. So proud of myself. Are you super proud of me? It was so good. Honestly, I could spend hours, just doing worship. The teaching was super good too. Being at Calvary is like eating hearty bread. I’ve been in seven or so churches over the years. Calvary is the best. I feel so so so so so much better now. I love church.
Thanks for giving me space. I know it doesn’t make a lot of sense, since I like you so much; but sometimes I need just church time, free of everything else. I need my space. Church often becomes a meat market for me, and I’m not fond of it. Maybe you can explain this to me sometime. Is it because I’m pretty? Is that it?
We need to talk youth group stuff too. That’s part of the reason I’ve been absent for so long. I want to be a good example to my middle schoolers. When I’m in youth group, mid-week, I am a leader. You are welcome to talk to me, but my focus will be on the kids. I expect that to be respected. And, knowing you, I’m sure it will be. This is something that is extremely important to me.
I’m thinking about friending you on Facebook too. I use Facebook for my dance business, and for a lot of communication. I expect my page to be respected (I’m saying this because I’ve had issues with guys in the past). I’ve already unfriended one guy friend so there wouldn’t be future issues (you’re welcome to guess which one. My way of firmly closing a door, and preventing any nonsense).
There is one other brief thing, and then I think we’ll be good. Five or so years ago, I did have another guy interest at Calvary. He’s married now, thank God for small favors, but he is still around and it may be a bit weird here and there. That’s what happens when you grow up in a church and know practically everyone. You’re welcome to ask who, and I’ll tell you, but I’m not mentioning that here. I completely bowled him over, personality wise. Got talked into it by a few people (parents suck sometimes. That was the absolute last time I let a guy’s parents talk me into something I was sure was a bad idea).
I’m feeling better now, and more normal. I’m glad we covered all the hard stuff first though. I feel like it will be really good, from here on out. Pray for fellowship over at your house too. Last time I did well, but I want to continue to feel at my ease. It’s getting better, but I’m not wholly there yet.
Last thing: we need to swing dance sometime. I had the dance studio all to myself this evening before church because my student cancelled last minute, and I sort of would really like to dance with you.
Rest well. You’re sweet.